Three years and Now turned back to blogging again.
Its all seasonal i Think, I am.

1st October 07.

Never realised getting lost would be so amusing. But the truth is I was amused all the time, for every road on that dark nite in Goa made us look lost. Feeling of reaching nowhere and getting stranded on the lightless roads with only night creatures to ask help for made us realise, we were confronting a true adventure but with fear. After taking a crosscut of 20 km through Verna we were on NH17b, somewhere in Zuarinagar with huge oil tanking plants along, not to be found on my map, we knew we were lost. And then I heard B.lee saying " Ehh B.p , yeh adventure sab toh thik hai par abhi mera phatt raha hai yaar." And then I sensed his fear in me on this precise moment. So we decided to carry on for another 5 km and to take the same lost route back around Verna if no directions were found. Just about 5 mins later we were to see green radium boards directing Madgaon - 23 kms. There I was happy to be back on track and sad as well for the unknown left behind.

This was the day when we set off on our bike on the route Benaulim-Vasco-Panaji-Calangute and back to explore Goa. From lush green paddy fields bounded by coconut trees to Kingfish curry rice served along sweet shrimps covered with coconut flakes, a Navy museum with Sea Harrier, MiG 29, MiG 21 and Suryakiran that we were not allowed to see cuz its closed on Mondays, Evening ferry ride on Mandovi to Jesus Cross churches well lit in the nite, Sunset on Calangute stretching red turned sand due to feet stampings, 25 mins ride to Nine bar just to find it turned into a family restaurant from a psychedlic trance outfit during off- seasons , long open road for an adventure ride back and ofcourse a pint of beer to sip on and reminiscence how much every waking day has to offer.

A pigeon said “Momma, Can father come back?”
She silently said “My little boy , once gone is gone forever. Nobody comes back then” and she let her tears flow.
Baby said “Momma, but I wanna see him just once. To tell him how much I miss him because for I was never by him when he took his last breath.”

Called a mother`s eye ,

“ On the day, as you learn
in this beautiful world
to open your wings and
take a flight,
Soon will he cease
as a guardian soul
and fly beside you.”

I am a big fish in the small pond and you swim in the sea. We are two unlikes but same of a kind living in two different worlds. Like those planets revolving around the same centered Sun. We can see and discover each other but can never breathe together.
And Perhaps do we cross our worlds , then either you or me will depart…to Cry alone.

Sea - Shifting Faces

Sitting on a beach and observing every motion of the sea- its waves,big and small- its colour,mild and intense,
was one entrancing experience.But the face it shows during each passing second is what intrigues me?

Early Morning the sea takes you by the breath as of she speaks those friendly words but as the day fades into the night she turns to a form of black darkness.
A darkness devouring all your thoughts and bringing you to a standstill.....

Don`t look so frightened,
Its just a passing phase,
And one of my bad days.

--One of my Turns, Pink Floyd.

“ Papa ” I said in a state of wakefulness and sleep.
And I realized that I called him after more than a 6 year pause.
The moment I heard it, my eyes flashed me a Scene.
I saw him coming out of the elevator, standing in front of the safety door,waiting for someone to open the door and let him in.
And as I can see it, he gave me a long yearning smile.
Smile that said “ Hi, Home again. ”

Like a dream it was indeed.
I closed my eyes, returned that Smile and slumbered.

Reaction Song -

“ Oh dear dad, can you see me now?
I am myself like you somehow.
I wait out in the dark ,
For you to speak to me.
And I have open up.
Release me !!! ”

----- by Pearl JAM.